“For a long time, I thought I was stronger than cocaine.” This is how Sandra Sisley’s poignant testimony begins, published last week on her Instagram account. Then the wife of actor Tomer Sisley says that in fact she was not managing anything at all, talks about her detoxification, her immense guilt and her shame in relation to her child or her nose, which has become necrotic.
“I used for years, then there was the collapse. Detoxification. Reconstruction. The months away from my child. Four months ripped from my life. Four months that I will never get back. Four months of facing what this addiction had taken from me. I stopped. I held on. I rebuilt my life,” writes the wife of the man who plays Largo Winch on the big screen.
Sandra Sisley, who works in communications and events, also spoke for “Paris Match”. She says she took her first dose twenty years ago, at age 33, out of curiosity. And quickly became completely dependent.
A pregnancy arrives. She candidly recounts the thought that crossed her mind at the time. “When I found out I was pregnant, the addiction was so strong that it almost pissed me off, because I was going to have to stop.”
“A slow rot”
Sandra Sisley manages to unwind during her pregnancy, saying that “fortunately, my mothering instincts resurfaced.” But she plunged again when her son was 2 years old. “I was overcome by a terrible feeling of guilt,” she remembers.
The click will come during an evening. His son then hurt his wrist. She lets him cry for about fifteen minutes in his bed, because she wants his fix first.
Comes the detox. “I came for 15 days, a month, they kept me for 4 months,” she summarizes.
Here it is finally “clean”. She then thinks she “paid the bill”. This is not the case at all. “I didn’t realize that a slow rotting was taking place in my nose.” She says that she then finds that everything smells bad. But “what stank was my nose,” she says.
“I had a first operation, then. Then a second. My nasal cartilage was damaged. Part of it has become necrotic. I have a perforated nasal septum which required a graft. A transplant that did not hold up as expected. So we had to go back to the operating room. Again,” she explains.
“I don’t take responsibility”
In her Instagram post, Sandra Sisley appears after one of her operations, with a large bandage on her nose, which goes up to her forehead and extends to her cheeks. In the video interview broadcast by “Paris Match” she has a large plaster on her nose. It has no medical use. She ends up taking it off to show off her new nose, very moved. “It’s not my nose, I don’t take responsibility,” she blurted.
Not very present on social networks, Tomer Sisley left a comment under the testimony of his wife. “You are the most inspiring person I know. You are the most beautiful person of all my adult encounters. You are the bravest person I know. You are the woman of my life. Thank you for existing.”
